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I crawl deep inside with hopes of getting out
trying to push back and tear through the mess of my mind
Nothing is decipherable, I'm blinded by the darkness
everything is jumbled like the Sundays' word search
      clear answers hidden within
But now I'm stuck, with no progress made
the words wrap themselves around me like vines
Visions of the past kaleidoscope at light speed
reliving the moments of pain
      the thorns of you dig deep into my skin
Everything is a blur
caked with thick fog that blinds and chokes
It swallows me now, the fears the tears
the shine of smiles and kisses are dimmer than ever before
      faint giggles resound at a distance
There's no coming back from this
trapped within my own head, repeating things never said
I've created this hell completely on my own
torturing myself til I'm nothing

"What did I ever do to you?"
I fall to my knees and scream
The disease floods from my mouth
Everything inside that breaks me is a lie
Made up in my own mind
By my own mind
Til I lose my mind

For what?
Because it can
Thoughts are powerful
Even your own

True or false
We believe what we tell ourselves
We put hope upon the shelves
Wrecking things to spite ourselves
       For some reason we think we're not worthy
Because we tell ourselves we're useless and dirty