TBC

Eyes like knives
Sins like pins
Piercing deep into your soul
Marking spots lacking self control

excerpts from a notebook

back pedal through life
blind folded to pain and strife
fed from your silver spoon
never felt salt in your wounds
you wouldn’t believe it for yourself
stand in my shoes; evaluate my hell

you're freaking me out (drafted 2/09)

warm cheeks, red faces;

my heart is in a strange place and

i've never felt this way before.

my heart is racing and my feet won't touch the floor.

i can't scream and i can't shout,

no one can see what this is all about.

i love you, i love you, but only secretly;

my mind's in a craze knowing that you think of me.

i quit let my emotions show,

because i've only met you once

and we hardly know

anything about each other, but

somehow it all seems right.

thinking about you makes me want you here tonight.

what am i doing to myself, falling for you ?

you're giving me too much time to think about "us,"

can our 'love' be true ?

i said it before and i'll say it again,

but now i'm wondering if it's too soon to say perfect, my friend.

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I'd say the score is settled now

Words cannot express what I need to confess
The constant pang of despair beats me with its icy whip
Was I not all that I could have been?
But with you I lost myself
      I didn't get lost in you
      I got lost because of you
      I forgot who I was; forced to change
And into who? To what?
      Made to be someone knew
      Someone neither of us bargained for
Is that why I stopped loving you?
      Because you stopped loving me
            because the me you once loved was gone
                  because you're the one that made her leave

Yet I sit here and cry
My dampened cheeks and sad eyes
I wonder and scream, why?
I blame myself for the falling apart
For changing you and killing your heart

It's funny though, because now I'm the one who can't move on
I've been long over our crappy run, but I'm no longer me
I'm not who I once was, so I can't cope and move on like Kelsey does