to be only yours

something curious is happening, i just can't tell what. no, not now, it's not your fault. if i could put my finger on this, all would be solved, if i had one more second to think about it, how would this evolve ? i can't quite place the feeling and what it means, it's just to hard to let go of and not close enough to meet. it's getting closer now, but it's nothing i can see; i can feel the pressure of it somehow, and it's killing me. my heart can't let go of what it is saying, but my fingers cannot grasp what it is. the meaning is bigger than him, her, and yes, me. oh, could someone explain exactly what is going on ? i can't find the words to aid me with this any longer.