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beautiful eyes
full of misconstrued little lies
of what ?
i'll never know

a smile so wide
helping me hide behind
my fears
which continue to grow

i cry
and scream
my knees are weak
i think i have to
go

crpnld

i always look at you, but i never see you.
i always hear you, but i never listen to you.
i always touch you, but i never feel you.
i can sense you, but you never actually sink in.
you're the breathe i need, but never the air i breathe in.
i push you away, but i only want to let you in.
i still love you, forever and always.
until the end.

xesyadhtrib

i screwed up for sure this time, i'm a liar and nothing is fine.
i was looking for something higher, i was looking for you to help inspire
thoughts i couldn't put into words and things i couldn't explain.
it's simple and it's plain, i'm a fool and i don't know how to deal with the pain
i have caused you all and the reasons i helped you fall are unreal.
i screwed up for sure this time and i can't help but to feel.

emancipate

what's going on ?
i dont understand this
where did we go wrong ?
everything's a hit and miss

can someone please rescue me ?
i dont know anything
i can't think at all right now
you know we'll figure this out somehow
help us, help us
we're sinking into oblivion now

you can talk to me all you want
tell me your lies because it's what you thought
no, i dont want to hear a sound
i cant do this to myself anymore
you can't stay around

ew

bones twist and contort with pride. a shallow heart, but bottomless insides. the bumps under my skin are not the usuals. the lump in my throat burns and makes few holes. the claws in my skin bring a sense of glee. you were never the one for me. a change of pace and her throat wrapped with lace. a new and fresh start for you broken, sunken heart. you couldn't even fathom what this is all worth, the pain you kept has haunted you since birth. the long and unpaved road we live on is a shameful excuse for the things we have done. a trip here and a jump there, the stinging pain in my head is something i can't bear. it moves and creeps it's way down to my heart, it takes on the role of harmful reminder as it's part. skin swallowed from chewed on hands, screaming, crying, joyful fans. facing the crowd is something we must do, enduring the pain is more to me than it could be to you. no one knows just what we are hiding from them, they all know that we cannot be better until then. so on we go and we make our way, to grin and bear it until we reach center stage.

what ?

swallow your pride while you tremble inside, this night's a cold one and so are the feelings you're trying to hide. a simple price to pay; a small and bittersweet decay. you were never the one you thought you were. a heart to be stolen, a promise waiting to be broken. you were the last one left in the nightmare. you were the first one that was not there.
oh how the chemicals burn, how the heart's desire churns. i'd still die in a second for you, lesson still not learned. a predicament such as this, a chance; it was a chance i did miss. an imbalance in the pavement, a crooked stone in the garden. you were never the last, you weren't even the first.
in a landfill, by the lake. my heart did tremble, my body did ache. a tear for happiness, a laugh for sorrow. this is nothing, you are nothing, we were nothing but a lie.

you don't even know me anymore.

hey there,

heart of stone,
the only feeling left is bitterness.
memories once known,
now disappear into an abyss.
a sharp pain running down your neck,
tells you, "baby it's time to forget."
regret, regret, is all that's left inside,
you try to run, but it wont let you hide.
the scars, they never heal;
and the pain makes it too hard to deal.
you can't get away from this demon,
it shallows you whole without feeling.
heart of stone, a heart of stone
is all that's left of you.

emalrb

feet running,
hearts beating to keep their same pace.
eyes batting just to hold on to the rhythm,
your teeth gnash to be safe.
palms sweat with enthusiasm and eagerness,
cheeks blush in the heat of the moment.
mascara runs and the tears race,
now your heart is in a chase.
fighting to beat your own self,
tripping over invisible lines just to get help.
strings chime,
the once tugs are now pulls.
a sudden, faint flicker breaks all the rules.

the grey man, i can't finish this

I don't know what's worse.
the feeling that you give me when i see you or the feeling i get knowing that i'm not allowed to anymore.
where are you when i need you, babe ?
i cried when you left me and now i cant see straight.
who else will be here to hold hand in the dark ?
where are the days when there was that spark ?
i miss you so much, and you dont even know, you'll never know.
not anymore, it's all said and done.
i need closure though, one last moment to talk to you and to find out what happened to you.

"you've got to run right back to her arms."

you can find your way

i can't sleep
i can't breathe
i miss your smell
your smile
you next to me
i can't think
i can't see
why did you go ?
how could you leave ?
i can't hear
i can't feel
my veins run cold now
my body is weak
my limbs won't move
my brain won't function
everything's fading to black
everything's one blurred emotion
everything's going
everything's gone...

iella

you've made me happier than i've ever been,
but yesterday it almost came to an end.
something happened and you were set off,
i cried and cried, but brushed it off.
i love you so much, and only time will tell,
if we can make this last and do it well.
you were the first one to put ideas in my head,
something's bitten me and it's affecting me, yeah..
you're going fast, but i dont want to slow it down,
i've only smiled lately and never frowned.
it'll be years soon, i know it will;
you're making me fall
harder
harder
until...






i'm there.

Lane, bullhorns

tie a knot
pull it tight
hold my hand
this feels right

please dont ever
let me fall
i love you so much
you are my all

take me with you
wherever you go
i'll always be with you
in your heart and soul

i hope that you remember
all the times we had
i'll never forget
the life we led

O.o

oh, praise the stranger that pulled me out from underneath that bus. praise the dear lord, i put my life in your trust. god, thank that man who gave his life for the one i currently lead. jesus, watch over me and take my soul to keep. you'll never let me fall with your grace and your might. thank you to that man who gave me new life. thank you for saving every bit of my soul. if i had a choice, i'd never get old. i'd live forever so that each day, i could thank you from down here for saving me that day.

i think i know

your voice is rining in my ear;
with the sweet whisper,
"i love you, dear."
my knees are weak,
i don't know why i can't hardly speak.
my hands won't even finish this letter,
things are finally getting better.
you complete me with all that you do,
i don't know how i've gone through without you.
your soft hand gripping mine;
our lips pressed together while our hearts intertwine.
a mood so delicate just for us two,
have i told you lately that i love you ?

get back

I'm white as snow,
there's no where left for me to go.
My head, numb and my knees, weak;
I don't understand what's wrong with me.
I've had too much this time,
I don't know if I can fix what you've done,
my heart's been smashed, it's over and done.
No, I never loved you one bit,
you were just the only one there that never quit.
You never gave up on me in all that I did,
you were the light of my live and gave me
a
reason
to
live.

Fuck you,
you're gone now.
And so am I.

I forgive you

You can blame it on your lack of backbone,
I don't care.
Just don't caress my face anymore,
it's something I can't bare.
You always have been a constant reminder,
a reminder of the mistakes I used to make.
You were never there to hold me,
you were always there to take.
Somehow I kept crawling back to you,
I still wanted more of you.
I can't stand the things I said,
and the things I did too.

I still remember the look on your face,
remember, when you told me to stay ?
I ran so fast away from you,
and I ended up so far away.
I can remember what I gave to you,
or more truthfully, the things I "let" you take.
Maybe you were never the reminder,
maybe you were my mistake.

how can you miss me if you've never met me ?

i tore and tore through your flesh,
it's finally gone now.
where'd your beauty go ?
it's only skin deep, but somehow...
i can feel how you used to look
in some eerie presence and a resounding hook.
your veins pulse over your bloody muscles,
i can't look away it's too good of a struggle.
you cringe and tick and all i can do is stare,
oh how i miss the pain i'll never bear !

without

the flesh torn from your limbs,
the hair ripped from your scalp;
this is how it's turning out.
a damp rag to wipe the blood from your face,
a dear friend to tie your loose lace;
how did we end up in this place ?
i dont know what to believe,
as i take shards of glass out your sleeve.
what happened here ?

to be only yours

something curious is happening, i just can't tell what. no, not now, it's not your fault. if i could put my finger on this, all would be solved, if i had one more second to think about it, how would this evolve ? i can't quite place the feeling and what it means, it's just to hard to let go of and not close enough to meet. it's getting closer now, but it's nothing i can see; i can feel the pressure of it somehow, and it's killing me. my heart can't let go of what it is saying, but my fingers cannot grasp what it is. the meaning is bigger than him, her, and yes, me. oh, could someone explain exactly what is going on ? i can't find the words to aid me with this any longer.

lock eyes

1692 and i don't know what to do
we're locked in on repeat
my heart just skipped a beat
my head it starting to pound
and i can't single in on a certain sound
little phrases with words i can't pronounce
my blood is being drained from me ounce by ounce
my eyelids are slipping down until they shut
listening to this is pouring salt in my cut
i can't think
i can't talk
don't move me around
i'm lost
and i'm done

break

I'll never confess
what lies beyond is kept secret for the best
the consequences of lying are not as great as truth
a slip of the tongue could change it all for us

short, my mind won't process