i want to see you;

my hands want to feel you.
To grasp at your very hand would be more than unexplainable.
Something i can't imagine perfectly is my lips pressed to yours.
All i know is that, the feeling I get when i am close to you makes me lose all sanity.
I know it sounds just so stupid and unrealistic, but I do.
I know that you will always be apart of me, but I dont know so much about me being a part of you.
That is all i could ever hope for, just to have the same affect on you as you do me.
I can't think of any words to describe you and that feeling i get when we are together, when our lips touch, when fingers are gently slipped between yours, and when our eyes meet with a gaze that can withstand anything.

#2

yeah she's always second best,
you can put her to the test.
she's always second best,
number two among the rest.
she's always second best,
even though she may be your all.
yes, she's always second best,
second, second best.

settle down now,

i love being able to run away every night and come back just in time for the next day.

i can go where ever i want to and feel so alive, my body and mind are cleansed and i am just free.

i come back to my little bed in this almost home and then start a new day.

it's so surreal how this could ever happen to me,

i love it and i take advantage of these opportunities...

but do you ?

no cake

what if i'm not being completely honest with you ?
what if i lied after all we've been through ?
what if you're not really into me ?
what if i'm not the girl you want me to be ?
what if all i said was false ?
what if all my heart does for you is a pulse ?
what if i'm not really in love ?
what would happen to us ?
what would happen to us, if none of this was real ?

i can't think straight, this is all fake.
it has to be, someone please help me.
knock some sense into my brain, i can't see anything.
i've lost all conciousness.
i've lost all hope.
i think i'm losing you too.