this is more of a song, but it still means so much to me

no life,
no mind,
no body,
no soul.
you are empty,
seeping into my veins.
you're so cold.
like shards of glass and metal in my bloodstream,
you're cutting me open from the inside out.
why, why can't i scream ?
pain and anger fill inside of me.
i stayed away,
i didn't even go near the light of day
for while, i didn't even sleep.
oh, like a baby,
i cry myself too sleep... finally,
when got some shut eye.
you were still torturing me.
why ?
why can't i ?
why can't i make anything of this ?
i can't think straight,
i can't breathe at all.
your hands smothering me,
you have won it all.
say something to me,
what's worse is not saying anything at all.
you won't ruin me.
i cant let you take all of me.
you're still taking some of me.
it doesnt belong to you !
so, so, so let go of me now.
i cant control anything.
how ?
did you think this was going to end ?
i thought i had a handle on things, yeah.