this is LAME

your name,
sends shivers,
up and down my spine.
your smile,
shoots thoughts of nausea,
through and through my mind.
so all i'm trying to tell you is that you really suck.
i hate your stature, your MORALS (ha) and my luck.
you're gross, you make me sick,
get out of my life,
your impression won't unstick.

both of my daniels are off

as i lean against the wall,
i am biting through the inside of my lip.
bite, bite, pierce the tissue.
im chewing up my lips,
from the inside out.
they swell,
you notice it now.
my lip is destorted,
but i still speak.
i whine,
i lied,
i can't speak.
my lip is gone.
it was butchered until the pieces fell to the floor.
the ground behind me,
like a fairytale trail of lip pieces.
they will live, even if i don't.
they will tell the story,
because they know i wont.

this is more of a song, but it still means so much to me

no life,
no mind,
no body,
no soul.
you are empty,
seeping into my veins.
you're so cold.
like shards of glass and metal in my bloodstream,
you're cutting me open from the inside out.
why, why can't i scream ?
pain and anger fill inside of me.
i stayed away,
i didn't even go near the light of day
for while, i didn't even sleep.
oh, like a baby,
i cry myself too sleep... finally,
when got some shut eye.
you were still torturing me.
why ?
why can't i ?
why can't i make anything of this ?
i can't think straight,
i can't breathe at all.
your hands smothering me,
you have won it all.
say something to me,
what's worse is not saying anything at all.
you won't ruin me.
i cant let you take all of me.
you're still taking some of me.
it doesnt belong to you !
so, so, so let go of me now.
i cant control anything.
how ?
did you think this was going to end ?
i thought i had a handle on things, yeah.

so be quiet

under my breath i will whisper,
words you never wanted to hear.
i will like i always do,
so be quiet.
mistaken, you were faking the feelings you once felt.
my vains are itching with grief and wonder,
i can't get over you and your transformation,
we never were what we always said we were.
into my bloodstream, you were injected,
i quit, but you still exist.
i have made up so many stories,
told so many lies,
you were always there.
you are always there.
where are your goodbyes ?
are they here ?
do they linger in your lies ?
i can't hear them now,
mentally blocked out.
where is the happiness ?
it's pain, guilt now.
i never said a thing,
you whispered to me nothing.
when we kissed,
did you close your eyes ?
or were they open,
screaming for some other girl's cries ?
hands clasped, tongue tied,
where is the mystery in that ?
i'm over it,
i've so done with that.

i wish this was true

you said you gave up on the world,
all because no one loved you.
you're so wrong, yeah, you,
that's completely untrue.
how do i know ?
how do i know that this is real ?
because some how you make me feel...
i feel totally new and uncontrolably alive,
i can't explain, but you're why i survive.
can i be that one for you ?
can't you see,
it's true,
i love you.

drop, step, and mush.

rub my eyes,
put my mouth to shame.
cut of your ears now,
with your nose, do the same.
cut to spite and spite with cut.
your feet are next,
walk the distance.
the flame to the end,
tap, tap, and sting.
let it go, let them fall.
it's down to the filter now,
what to do ?
should i take another or
just let the burning persue ?
until i inhale nothing more than fire,
burn my insides higher and higher !
this is not a plea or a cry for help,
it's just words i make up myself.

missed call from me to you

tears all gone and faded away,
only the wet stain on my cheek remains.
broken beads shaped like hearts on my bed,
little boys with girls that have pigtails are the thoughts in my head.
that's what i think of when the only thing i can think of is you,
i imagine we are innocent withoit worries too.
who would've guessed that we would end up like this,
two seperate: rooms, cities, minds and thoughts.
i can't remember when, i mean the last time of course,
when i saw you: smile, wink, or even wave of course.
the sound goes from my throat, into this speaker, and out of your phone;
who would've thought it'd be the machine i'd be talking to.
i'm spilling my heart now,
condensed into one recording,
you will delete it without even listening to the story.

pointless story.

you have always been there,
right infront of me from the very start.
i never noticed you before,
you never noticed me either.
there you were,
every friday night.
there i was,
standing under the light.
never did i know who you were,
never did you know who i was.
i never saw you,
you never saw me.
until that wednesday,
you looked at my bracelets.
that's when you saw,
and noticed me.