i've decided to not do stupid bs blogs anymore

i will actually share my thoughts with the stupid internet.
keep in mind that my punctuation probably won't be the best because when i get in a writing mood, those are my thought's and soul. all else goes out the window.

staring at the clock, ten more mintues.
breaths, sighs of relief; you're almost mine.
clamy hands, pebbles of cold sweat on your brow.
enter into my life, the room of white that was once ours.
wine, whine, read, and read.
i cant think with this contaminated head.
thoughts whirl, spiraling everywhere into an abyss.
i cant breathe, it's over now.
put your fists down, my pride is torn.
from ear to ear is sewn, your smile faded
ceased hearing and blind thoughts
eyes failed when you tried to speak
knees went weak when you tried to hear
the words, the words, they were my last.
you're a fake, a liar, now a friend.
a foe, a hero, and enemy.
my love, my sorrow, the pain.
you were my very first.
tied at the wrists, my heart is captive.
my soul bottled up and figure decreped.
the first mistake i made was you,
that was my only mistake too.
the object lay at your feet,
if only i had you close to me.
that will never happen again,
the glance i got was hell and when
you lifted your hand, all was said,
i might as well have been dead.