oh no, not again

usually i post one blog a month, but this month is not the same ! [:

last night: AMAZING. everything i anticipated it to be and even more. it exceeded my expectations !

i worked until 4:30 and rushed to Ryanne's house. We talked, sat around, and i oggled over her cute sisters ! Then we went to the show. Even though ADTR canceled, it was still very fun. and since a lot of people showed up because they thought they were playing and other such reasons, i got to see a lot of people i haven't seen in a while. i was tons of fun. Then we went to CC's and that was another mini adventure. haha. After, we went back to Ryanne's sat on the compter, made nachos, and drank tea. Finally, we finished off what was probably one of the best nights of my life by far with watching Deja Vu.

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-Remember when you just came out, when everyone knew what you were all about. You faked your death and that was fun but, girl, I think it's just begun. You take another line and you feel fine this time.-
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AH ! so, i just found out you have a girlfriend ! what the fuck, man ? thanks for leading me on, stupid. oh well, actually it doesnt bother me, i just felt like cursing and that seamed like a legit way to do it. i'm pretty much over it. haha. oh, the mind of Kelsey, right ?

and and, fo you, the phrase "out of line" could not have been any more appropriate than it was in the situation. what the heck, man ? you were so out of line, but that's okay. that's just really, really not cool, but who needs you, silleh ? [:

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there's another thing i want to address, but not directly so here:
Cooper and Lacey want to buy and car, but they think it is too expensive. They also realize that there are a lot of loop holes and it's a pretty penny. They buy the car anyway because they think it will be fun to have and in the end worth it, but they can't put it in their name. They drive it around anyway eventhough there are so many things that could go wrong.
This is just my opinion. i'm not forcing it on people, i love a lot of people who have done this or do it. it's just not for me.
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anyway, summer is going better than i have lead myself to believe. hah. well, somewhat. i've been getting on stickam, going out, and working a lot. That's a pretty good mix.


okay, so here it is:

haha, it says "READY SET LICK"

and a bite of thought:
"never could a man know what it's like to feel the pain of another man's life."

remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?

oh no, i've lost you.
we always talked about how that happened to other people and that it would never happen to us. thick as theives, best friends until the end, sisters.
that's all different now, five years, slowly fade and condense into one month, now it's all gone.
that's fine if you moved on; you're not the only one.

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-oh, what a shame we all became such fragile, broken things. a memory remains just a tiny spark. i gave it all my oxygen so let the flames begin, let the flames begin. -
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i'm actually really happy with my life right now, a bit stressed, but over all satisfied. [:

i have made a ton of amazing friends that i wouldn't trade for the world. i am so happy that we've met and we seem like we can make this last.

and i've settled my fears and got my opinions out with my best friend so it seems like we are both on the same page. it'd hurt me a little to see him with someone else, but he's not mine. and i'm going to be with other people and i can't expect him to not do anything if i am going to. i just dont want to see him get hurt. that is my big thing. girls are pretty.. rough on guys these days. i just want everything to be good for both of us. i'm just happy we got closer.
i just lav yew, best friend. [:

the newest additions are quite a few. like her, i am at her house right now. what a sweetheart. i can tell her any and everything and we have only known eachother for a short bit. i have never really opened up to anyone that fast before, but i just knew something was there. she and i have both have the same views and for the most the same friends.

you, we've gotten closer. so i think; you are one of my best friends by far. you come over all the time at all hours of the night. and you're a sweetheart. i'm starting to open up to you more and the night you and him were over opened my eyes to how sweet you really were.

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so stickam. i got one and i love it ~! haha. i get to see everyone all of the time and all of the stupid shit they do behind closed doors.
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this is the longest blog i've posted on here yet.
peace and love, niggas.

and as always i leave you with a piece of my mind:



and just this once, a quote:
"fear is in the heart of men who love; love is in the heart of all who fear."